Y'all know that this has been such a process.
I would love to tell you all the crazy that is going on in my life.
But it would require more space on my Blog than I can actually afford. But trust me when I say, the basement is just a distraction to the rest of my life.
Where do I start, the first three... Money, Family, Sex, Children, House, Parents... Opps that is six.
Well, last night was a cry night. I was ready to go back to work, at Kroger. Only kidding, but I was really ready to give up.
I was ready to go back to what I know. 80 hour work weeks, the six figure salary and being MISERABLE DAY IN AND DAY OUT because I have once again missed some milestone that my kids have accomplished and I was once again at work.
Oh and did I mention the stress factor and how I turn into this person that I don't like. Needing to find one committee after the other in order to be published in the latest and greatest magazines.
Well, you know that all decisions that lead toward happiness require a sacrifice. I was doubting my decision. I was ready to give in and not do what is best for me, my family and my soul.
OK, that was huge DIGRESSION... But now let me get back on track...
My husband walks down stairs and hands me the phone. It a friend of his from Chicago, Shawn Perry. I vaguely remember meeting her when we first moved to Atlanta.
Well, the first words out of her mouth are "Don't give up, God has a plan for you." What a way to wake up in the morning. She was such an encouragement. She basically gave me that shot of hope that I thought I had lost last night.
Apparently she Googled Ejimah to get his phone number and she found my blog. She and the ladies at the job and her daughter JaLisa have been reading it for months.
Ejimah was so surprised. She was telling him about things that happened while he was in Africa. He was so busy trying to tell her something new, she was like "I already know."
So let me just leave you with this little ray of sunshine. It all looks different in the daylight.
I am moving forward and motivated. I am ready to do what it takes to be HAPPY!!
I am not talking to be happy in the since of simplicity. I am talking about the stuff that makes your heart sing. When the bills are not paid, but you get a good night's sleep happy. When faith in just being requires a hug from a three year old who says "Mama we had fun at the park today"... HAPPY
until we meet again,
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